This past week has been a whirlwind of emotion for me. Emotional is an accurate word to describe me at the present time. But I don't want to be! So I've been fighting it, which makes it worse honestly. Kind of like the elephant in the room it is just there, hanging out. Waiting to pounce - ok maybe trample. Elephants don't pounce.
But! Once again I am truly amazed by my Lord and Savior. I will get to why but let me back up just a little. I help out with Awana and one of the lessons was talking about how we are to be filled with the Spirit. It explained that one of the ways to do this is to know and obey God's word. And I realized that I read God's word but do I truly know His word? Yes and no.
So my challenge is this...For 30 days I've given up TV - my main distractor these days since I am completely exhausted. I found a book called "100 Bible Verses Everyone Should Know By Heart". If you know me, I am a structure kind of girl. I like plans, I like things laid out and this book is perfect! So my goal is 100 verses in 30 days. Right now I'm on day 7 and it is fun! I've learned so much in 7 days and although it is a HUGE challenge with pregnancy brain at times, it is a million times better to do than watch TV.
So back to where I was...sitting in a room with my emotions. And then this morning during my devotional time one of the verses I memorized this morning is "Your heart must not be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in Me." John 14:1 I realized that I was allowing my emotions to control me. I've been so consumed with trouble - Alyssa, the foundation, finding a new place to live, work...I mean this elephant was getting bigger and bigger. And then this verse. It's amazing how something so simple - one verse - can lift the weight of everything and restore peace.
So. 29 weeks. I am filled with joy and hope. Not trouble. I think back to Alyssa and I am filled with gratitude. Nothing is accidental. Believe in God for He loves you and is in control.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
28 Weeks
28 Weeks! Adalyn is moving more and gaining weight! It's so different and it's those differences that make me so very thankful. It is hard though - I can't help but think of Alyssa. The other day had me sobbing and I'm at the point now where if I even start crying it's hard to stop. And it continues throughout the day. I haven't been emotional my whole pregnancy and it seems to be hitting full force. That and craving for slushes from Dairy Queen.
The other day I went and registered! Talk about fun times! I was reluctant to do so - I don't want to seem like I'm asking for too much. But a good friend encouraged me to do it and I'm glad I did. Even if we don't get a single thing off the registry, it was still fun! And it made me soooooooooo excited for March to come. I got some too cute outfits for Addie. She will be one cutesy dressed little girl! 8 weeks to go!
The other day I went and registered! Talk about fun times! I was reluctant to do so - I don't want to seem like I'm asking for too much. But a good friend encouraged me to do it and I'm glad I did. Even if we don't get a single thing off the registry, it was still fun! And it made me soooooooooo excited for March to come. I got some too cute outfits for Addie. She will be one cutesy dressed little girl! 8 weeks to go!
Monday, January 3, 2011
26 Weeks...Almost
It's been awhile but I have been super busy! I've started to get crazy about nesting. One day I spent almost the entire day sorting through things and you know what? It only made a bigger mess which made me obsess about it even more! Now I'm back to work and all I want to do is organize and clean the classroom. I know I have time but I just want to have everything in order for her and to make things easier in March. Is it crazy that I have made list after list detailing what needs to be done? I just can't wait to cross everything off!
Other things that I am obsessing about are entirely baby-related. What crib? What stroller? Is that safe? Look, I am trying to not become a crazy pregnant lady. But I am finding out that it is easier said than done! There are so many decisions to make and time is ticking.
In Adalyn news...She is moving around more and more. She is a night owl! She doesn't move around much during the day but once 10:00 hits she goes kung-fu crazy. We have another ultrasound Friday and I am excited! I always look forward to seeing her and seeing her get bigger and bigger. I am so thankful that this pregnancy has been worry-free (for the most part!) Pictures will come soon!
Other things that I am obsessing about are entirely baby-related. What crib? What stroller? Is that safe? Look, I am trying to not become a crazy pregnant lady. But I am finding out that it is easier said than done! There are so many decisions to make and time is ticking.
In Adalyn news...She is moving around more and more. She is a night owl! She doesn't move around much during the day but once 10:00 hits she goes kung-fu crazy. We have another ultrasound Friday and I am excited! I always look forward to seeing her and seeing her get bigger and bigger. I am so thankful that this pregnancy has been worry-free (for the most part!) Pictures will come soon!
Monday, December 6, 2010
22 Weeks
22 weeks! I can't praise God enough. I feel Adalyn move and it brings me such joy inside - I can't describe just how I feel. She is becoming more and more of a night owl. It's comforting that she is so active but hard to sleep! People tell me that she is just preparing me for what is to come! Thank goodness I will have 6 weeks off of work.
Our next appointment is next Thursday. I can't wait to see her and find out how much she has grown. Pretty soon she will weigh a pound. Crazy to think that she will weigh as much as what Alyssa weighed when she was born. So many bittersweet milestones.
Only 14 weeks left!
Our next appointment is next Thursday. I can't wait to see her and find out how much she has grown. Pretty soon she will weigh a pound. Crazy to think that she will weigh as much as what Alyssa weighed when she was born. So many bittersweet milestones.
Only 14 weeks left!
Friday, November 26, 2010
Thanksgiving and 20 Weeks!
20 weeks! Woo hoo! Can I just say that time has gone by so fast? It feels like just the other day I found out I was pregnant and now we are eating turkey and pumpkin pie. 16 weeks to go! For those of you who don't know I will have Adalyn at 36 weeks (37 at the most). This is because of the emergency c-section with Alyssa. I can't go to 40 weeks. It also means that I will have another c-section. Just to clarify. :)
We went to Columbia to bring more gift cards and meet our second family. God has blessed us in so many ways. We've met a lot of people that support and encourage us. He's also given us a way to help others and reach out. It's just awesome!
We spent Thanksgiving with our friends that we met while we were in the NICU. They donated the diaper bag and invited us for Thanksgiving dinner. It's so nice to be able to see their daughter grow - she's walking and talking now! Crazy and I can't help but wonder if Alyssa would be doing the same.
When we went to the NICU, the social worker gave us a CD of pictures that were taken the day she passed. I don't remember someone being in there when we were holding her or anytime before but I guess someone was. I haven't looked at them - I can't bring myself to right now. Maybe one day.
In other exciting news, Jamie felt Adalyn kick! I mean how awesome! He didn't believe me when I told him that I felt her kick from the outside. He swore that she was too small. But he felt her kick 3 times! I didn't say "I told you so" but I couldn't help but think it! I'm so happy he was able to feel her. He never felt Alyssa kick and I was hoping that he would feel Adalyn. He felt her on Thanksgiving day - isn't that awesome? :)
We went to Columbia to bring more gift cards and meet our second family. God has blessed us in so many ways. We've met a lot of people that support and encourage us. He's also given us a way to help others and reach out. It's just awesome!
We spent Thanksgiving with our friends that we met while we were in the NICU. They donated the diaper bag and invited us for Thanksgiving dinner. It's so nice to be able to see their daughter grow - she's walking and talking now! Crazy and I can't help but wonder if Alyssa would be doing the same.
When we went to the NICU, the social worker gave us a CD of pictures that were taken the day she passed. I don't remember someone being in there when we were holding her or anytime before but I guess someone was. I haven't looked at them - I can't bring myself to right now. Maybe one day.
In other exciting news, Jamie felt Adalyn kick! I mean how awesome! He didn't believe me when I told him that I felt her kick from the outside. He swore that she was too small. But he felt her kick 3 times! I didn't say "I told you so" but I couldn't help but think it! I'm so happy he was able to feel her. He never felt Alyssa kick and I was hoping that he would feel Adalyn. He felt her on Thanksgiving day - isn't that awesome? :)
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Fall is Here!
How I love fall! I love that the weather is (somewhat) cooler and the leaves - oh the leaves! So beautiful. I enjoy driving around this time of year to see all the trees. The best thing? The countdown to Thanksgiving! Can I just say how much I am looking forward to turkey, mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, and oh goodness pumpkin pie? Oh yummy. Little miss is ready for her first taste of Thanksgiving food.
Oh in case you don't know we found out that we are having a little girl! Can't say how excited we are. Well as of now she is a she. We'll find out 100% November 15 when we have a 3D ultrasound. Can't wait for that! We wanted to do that with Alyssa but never got the chance to. We decided to name her Adalyn Marie. And if she turns out to be a he we will be just as happy and his name will be Ethan Hunter.
Wednesday I will be 17 weeks. Morning sickness (well actually all day sickness) has come to a halt! I can now pretty much eat anything although pizza still doesn't really excite me much. Thought I would test it out yesterday while watching the Auburn game but one piece was enough. What I really enjoyed were the hot wings. Weird how things you avoided before you were pregnant are now the things that you crave. I guess the combination of hot wings and football excited the baby girl because I felt a flutter! So this means 1 of 2 things...1) She is really a he or 2) She is going to be a total daddy's girl. :)
I know I have been slacking on ultrasound pictures but I haven't had a chance to scan them yet. I will be very soon and will post pictures of the peanut soon!
Oh in case you don't know we found out that we are having a little girl! Can't say how excited we are. Well as of now she is a she. We'll find out 100% November 15 when we have a 3D ultrasound. Can't wait for that! We wanted to do that with Alyssa but never got the chance to. We decided to name her Adalyn Marie. And if she turns out to be a he we will be just as happy and his name will be Ethan Hunter.
Wednesday I will be 17 weeks. Morning sickness (well actually all day sickness) has come to a halt! I can now pretty much eat anything although pizza still doesn't really excite me much. Thought I would test it out yesterday while watching the Auburn game but one piece was enough. What I really enjoyed were the hot wings. Weird how things you avoided before you were pregnant are now the things that you crave. I guess the combination of hot wings and football excited the baby girl because I felt a flutter! So this means 1 of 2 things...1) She is really a he or 2) She is going to be a total daddy's girl. :)
I know I have been slacking on ultrasound pictures but I haven't had a chance to scan them yet. I will be very soon and will post pictures of the peanut soon!
Monday, October 4, 2010
Third Time's the Charm
It's official! Pregnant for the third time. And this time it seems like everything is going well. I pray that everything continues to go that way. We are both so excited. This pregnancy is the same as the other 2 but different. Good different. A couple more weeks an we an find out what we are having. Yes I plan on doing that - I am a planner! We decided on names. Ethan Hunter if we are having a boy and Adalyn Marie if we are having a girl. Everyone keeps asking me what I want and honestly I want a healthy baby. I want to go from a pound of butter to a butterball. :) As long as my baby is healthy I am happy.
It's hard to believe that I am pregnant again. No matter what happens I will always choose God. Even if I end up with a soccer team in heaven. I will keep everyone posted on the developments and eventually scan one of our ultrasound pictures.
As for cravings I have a lot of them. Just depends on the day. It's funny. A lot of the things I avoided when I was pregnant with Alyssa are what I avoid. And a lot of what I wanted when I was pregnant with Alyssa are what I want. Like cake and ranch corn nuts. It's a nice connection.
In other news Jamie is still recovering from his surgery. We're both kinda helpless with me being tired all the time and Jamie only having one arm to do stuff with. But now that the walk is done I can rest a little more! Yay!
It's hard to believe that I am pregnant again. No matter what happens I will always choose God. Even if I end up with a soccer team in heaven. I will keep everyone posted on the developments and eventually scan one of our ultrasound pictures.
As for cravings I have a lot of them. Just depends on the day. It's funny. A lot of the things I avoided when I was pregnant with Alyssa are what I avoid. And a lot of what I wanted when I was pregnant with Alyssa are what I want. Like cake and ranch corn nuts. It's a nice connection.
In other news Jamie is still recovering from his surgery. We're both kinda helpless with me being tired all the time and Jamie only having one arm to do stuff with. But now that the walk is done I can rest a little more! Yay!
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